I do this with a great deal of pain and disappointment, but I have concluded that it is time to stop deceiving myself into thinking that I am making a difference. Theoretically, I am distributing to over 500 people, but how many of those actual read my analysis is anybody’s guess. I suspect not many.
We live in an age when very few are interested in hearing anything that does not fit their predilections and worse their prejudices. An increasing number of people in the age of Obama find themselves most satisfied with the rantings of Fox, or to a lesser extent are happy to listen MSNBC, because it fits their particular predisposition. Fewer and fewer are interested in a balanced view or in the facts, as can be seen from the constant drop in the ratings in the less ideological CNN. I was dismayed a while ago, when a good friend said he no longer listens to the Newshour because he finds it “boring” and other friends who used to read the New York Times from cover to cover are now content to glance over the headlines and move on.
Nor was I encouraged when a number of readers removed themselves from my subscription and/or distribution lists, because I expressed views on the policies of the government of Israel at variance with their own. Rather than take the opportunity to make their own views heard across my megaphone, such as it is, they choose to cover their ears and run away from views that are not in keeping with their own.
I have also become painfully aware that many of the people who used to contribute their insight years, or even months ago, have disappeared from my radar screen, and some claiming to read my commentary have expressed agreement with my views, only to express, in their next breath, contrary views.
Nor was I encouraged when a friend, and a long time contributor, wrote a comment on my commentary entitled, Texas & Identity Politics that seemed to assume that my commentary related to the Texas school board curriculum, when it spoke strictly to the issue of identity politics.
Even people who assure me that they read my commentaries faithfully and wholeheartedly agree with my views, are not encouraging me, for as I said in commenting on an exchange with a Right wing ideologue, in the The Politics of the Big Lie:
“Let me say to my readers that I write these commentaries not so much to express opinions, though that is certainly one purpose, but more important to set the record straight as to facts, which I spend a great deal of time and effort documenting. I often get comments from readers that they agree with my opinions. I hope that they don't just get views they can agree with, for if that is all I accomplish, then my efforts are in vain. It is the underlying facts that are important and there are too many myths, too many misconceptions out there that need to be corrected. I aim to do that.
“During the Bush Administration there seemed to be a tendency to start with an ideological conclusion, and if the facts didn't fit, to change them. Whatever opinions people have the facts should come first. If I can contribute to destroying myths, to set the record straight, then I believe I will have made a valuable contribution.”
And yet I look in vain for comments that indicate that I have provided a fact that they had not known and they find helpful, or even someone adding facts I had overlooked, or had misstated one.
But strangely, in this overly ideological purity I find no passion on my side. We have neglected our problems for half a century, and have the first President during that span of time who is actually is trying to address them, who has saved the country from the looming chasm of a ’29 depression, who has successfully, if not fully, addressed our health care crisis, who has partially alleviated the pain of our gay community, while recognizing that one must move within the framework of what is politically possible, and who has brought this nation back into the world esteem it once enjoyed, to mention only a few of his achievements, but who faces vicious criticism not only from those who are his and my ideological enemies, but from those who supposedly are his and my political soul mates, who instead of directing their fire against those who tell countless lies, are the architects of the economic dilemma that the President has already prevented, direct their fire against the President and his party because they have not achieved all that one might wish in a little over a year.
I said I find no passion on my side. Contrast that with the passion of the Tea Party movement. Where are the angry voices in opposition to them? They are mostly silent, except maybe against the President because there are still many unemployed.
When I published an excerpt from The ”Best and the Brightest” to show how even then people expected miracles from a new President which could not be delivered, I expected many to find that striking and enlightening. Only one person expressed this as being interesting, and that was in an oral conversation, though it was appreciated.
In bidding adieu, I must say that there were a few bright spots recently that I must acknowledge. Patricia Burns of Edgewater, NJ gave me a great deal of encouragement when she let me know how much she appreciated my efforts. Someone on the Right agreed that he wanted to hear contrary views and appreciated my wanting to share a platform with him.
But most have fallen silent, and I find their silence and their self-absorption deafening. I cannot make my voice heard over that deafening silence and I am no longer willing to try.